Four years I’ve lost, maybe more.
I’m done with fear, holding hatred, and panic attacks.
This time, I’m taking my life back.


Fucking fadeout ..I hate the fade. Just once, can’t something last, too much to ask


Upset tummy. Two smokes later .. problem solved.

Upset tummy. Two smokes later .. problem solved.

When it’s all said and done, she’ll still have a mile left to run.
Only time will tell, she creates her own hell.
The one she holds close, she’ll slowly fear most.
The one she held dear, will soon disappear.
The one she chose, nobody knows.
The one she disowned, no longer walks alone.
Maybe then, she’ll see.
Her true enemy, isn’t me.


With tearstained cheeks

and piercing lashes

She’ll force a smile

till all this passes


Why hello there

She wants it to end

no more questions

no more doubt.

She wants a cure

she wants to know for sure.

Is she in or is she



Black Heart

Blackened heart burned by the heat of hatred.
Torn by the tears of terror
broken by the bitterness of betrayal.
Blackened heart darkened by despair.
Lost in loneliness
cursed with confusion.
Blackened heart thrashed by trust
numb and naive.
Stained with the scars of satan
decomposed within.
Blackened heart sin from the start.




No hand to hold mine
No scent
No time
No one to run to
No place to hide
Nothing to truly call mine
all mine
No more kisses
No more hugs
No more turning over
No one is there
Can I be heard
Will I be saved
Running in circles
Day after day
When will it stop
This dizzy maze
Counting the seconds
Till I see your face
Unanswered questions
Unspoken words
Each hour turns and turns
Blank memories
and flooded sleep
Some make a sound
Some never peep
Will there be shelter
Will there be peace
Will there be a day
when you come back
to me


suffocating silence